Once A Close Friend, Now A Stranger

We get to see and hear this everyday,everywhere.

From people we know and from people we don't know

Friends, family, relatives, and even strangers

A phrase where we can never escape nor forget about it

A phrase where it bound to happen to us

Once A Close Friend, Now A Stranger

From a stranger to being a friend

From a friend to being a close friend

Those are stages on how friendship goes or flow

The funny thing was how we understand each other

We know each other pretty well

Till people said that we are like partners or like siblings

Things we shared

Thoughts we expressed to each other

We know each other darkest secret

Chatted with each other everyday

Going out, hanging out

And always be there for each other when needed

It creates a bond, creates a relationship between them

But,

As times takes its course

Things change

Everything change

And that bond has become a very thin line

It's just weird how this happen

Happen to all of us

Why? How? What?

Causes this to happen

From those happy days we spend with each other

Now turn into like we have never met each other before

As we bump into each other, we just say "Hi" and "Bye"

Those moment before this has been now long forgotten

As felt like we are just fading apart

Slowly disappearing

Once A Close Friend, Now A Stranger

20 True Facts About Me

20 True Facts About Me

The 20 Facts About Me has been going on viral on Facebook and Instagram. I did it, but now i'm gonna do another version, similar but 20 true facts about me

1. The only son in the family yet the youngest, never like to be alone at home where both my sisters are working overseas. Seeing the rest enjoyed their siblings company as where i have to be at home with my parents

2. A fool. A fool that believe in anything and follows it to the end. A lot of my friends tend to said that i'm a sincere fool where i tend to walk into the path where i know it will never go my way, but still follow that path

3. A loner. Now this may be shocking, but yes, i'm a loner. it may seem i hang out a lot with friends, but deem down inside, i'm a lone wolf. I tend to place myself away from people where i know i feel safe being just by myself

4. A talkative ass. Yes, i'm a talkative boy, and yes i know i can get annoying but that's just me being me. As a loner, we have a lot to say as we seldom talk with others, as we kept all our words and just exploded when we talk with someone.

5. Easily jealous. It may be hard to admit but yes i'm easily jealous with others. Things such as how successful people are compare to me or how close people are compare to me. From it, it makes me scary when people see me.

6. Over-thinking. I always over-think even though its just a small matter. My mentality tend to do this when something doesn't go my way or how it doesn't satisfy me. Even though i'm alone, i also tend to think a lot. And that's what makes me scary.

7. A caretaker. I have always been the caretaker among my friends. The guy who is there to take care of them when they are drunk or just being needed to be taken care of

8. A shoulder friend. Same as being the caretaker, i have been the friend who needed someone to be there when they feel down, or when they feel sad. I'm always there when people are in need. But in return, not many people are there for me when i needed it.

9. A filler. I've been always a person who come in to fill in their loneliness or their emptiness. When they feel in need of someone to chat with, without any rejection i will just be that person who will fill up that gap.

10. A sensitive guy. I'm a very sensitive guy who tend to cry over something that are very sad or something dramatic. When i'm sensitive its easy to notice.

11. Emotional guy. Same as above, it is obvious when i  get emotional and that's also when i'm scary as well.

12. A jackass or a jerk.

13. A loyal bitch. To admit it, i can be as loyal as a dog to its owner. I never cheat and i never chase others if i have a partner at that time

14. Without hesitation, any friend that in need of any help, i will just say yes and just jump right in to help them out. No matter what i will be there to help

15. A lazy bum. Sadly to admit this, i'm a lazy bum but like what Bill Gates said before, a lazy guy will always find the quickest way to settle a problem

16. Creative. I'm good with DIY stuff, some presents that i gave are consists of DIY

17. Easily heartbroken

18. Weak body. I have a weak body and yes i tend to get sick. But, there's 1 sickness or illness that i possess, i tend to produce more acid in my stomach than normal. And that's why i have been working out and go for sports lately just to keep fit.

19. Being dramatic. Yup, that's me

20. Lastly, a boy where people treat him like a tool. Being used when needed, thrown away when its not needed.

There are just 20 true facts about me 

Shadow Of Life

Shadow Of Life
Walking in the shadow of fear
drowning endlessly by a single tear
running along side of self-discovery
fearing the loss of self- recovery
parts of mind going unknown
dangerous sides going unshown
one day you will eventually die
so today make everything right

Always Be Your Shadow

Always Will Be Your Shadow,

Looking Out For You,
You May Not Feel My Presence,
But I'm Always By Your Side,
Guiding You Through Thick And Thin,
Will Always Be Your Faded Shadow.

Being A Shadow

I've always been a shadow
A shadow to people
Who guide you while not being there physically
But mentally
A shadow who care for you
Whenever you need it
I know when you are sad and sit there crying
I was there, by your side
I couldn't speak
Nor say anything
But just sit there with you
And listen to your problem
My presence will not be felt by you
Nor notice by you
But I'm always there
You don't know it that's why
I'm fine just being by your side
As long your are safe and happy
In a dark place, where you won't be able to see me
But, I'm still there, unseen
As long there is light around you
I can be seen
The brighter the light, the more i can be seen
But still unnoticeable
I shall be the shadow
That will guide you to the brightest light
Support you throughout the journey
As to find that light
Being a shadow
I will be there for you, always

Great stories...

Great stories from books, novels, poems and other literature related products comes from experiences or great creative ideas. Some can just write a book while sitting in a toilet and who knows, it become a hit. Some may write a good book when they just go out explore or maybe just sit at a place where they could get inspirations.

I've always wanted to write a story based on experience that i had gone through during my lifetime.
A story based on a true story and maybe a little of fiction in the story. But, for people like me, now im gonna write a story based on a dream i had. A dream that was surreal that i thought it happen to me in reality itself.

This dream i had was few years back, a story of a poor boy who befriend a rich girl who has a fatal illness that could not be recover nor able to be cure. From a friendship story to a romantic story. From a happy memory to a sad memory. The dream i had had man transitions that could make myself hate the protagonist and the antagonist and vice-versa. The question is, how am i suppose to make it a good story, how to make it 300+ pages long story?

A story maybe i couldn't even finish it.

Time will tell. But this story, i really really want to write it.

No Idea

What i feel

How i feel

What im gonna post

For today

Im not sure about it

Im not sure how i feel

Im not sure what to post

I know blogs are like personal diaries

Where one share their moments

Share their feelings

Their memories

I was told this by a certain person

Who i used to be close with

Now i really don't know what to post nor share

My mind has been going everywhere

Thinking alot

Not sure what

But i have been thinking alot

I had insomnia for the past weeks

No appetite

Parents and friends said that i look very pale

Some even said i look weak

Truthfully

I felt that way as well

Getting sick and tired easily

 Funny thing about me

I had been going to my special place

Just sit there

Relax

But i felt that something is not right

Its missing Someone

Wish You Were Here, Sitting Back To Back, With Me

Everytime i went there

I felt it missing someone

A miss in the picture

A place where i used to say "Where It All Begin"

Everything begin at that special place

My memories

My experiences

My moments

Gathered at that special place

Grasps That Moment, Reach For It

A place where i go just to think back

All the moments, experiences and memories that i had been through

A place where i share with others who i truly care and love

Now it felt empty

Just only me and the wind

A Special Place, To Me

An Open Letter To The Girl Who Let The Nice Guy Go

I’ve seen it happen way too many times: The nice guy loses the girl for being exactly who he is.

What’s even worse is if he’s really the nice guy, he’s going to lose her and say nothing about it. He’ll accept it as something she truly wants and give her his best wishes, as she walks away being everything he could ever want.

On behalf of all the nice guys out there, this is to the girl who walked out on the best thing that ever happened to her:

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Dear Girl Who Walked Away,

It’s not like you weren’t aware of what you were getting yourself into. He told you he was nice. He trusted easily and gave you all he could when he could.

The nice guy believes in doing things right. He was there when you needed him to be, and he went out of his way to make sure you knew just how much you could mean to someone.

We live in a generation where we all have to wear masks and play parts to make it through the battlefield of dating in the 21st century. There is no such thing as giving it your all.

We like quotes on Facebook and post things on Instagram stating we want the masochist one day and the romantic the next. We play these games where being available can only happen sometimes, and playing hard-to-get must be our number one priority. Why?

I thought the ultimate goal was to eventually settle down. I mean, what is the point of dating if you have no desire for it to go anywhere? If a one-night stand is what you’re looking for, leave the good guys alone and toy within the levels you lay down.

Save yourself time and energy because the good guy isn’t going to make it easy to just walk away. The good guy cares, so he’ll get his explanation from you even though he knows it’ll be a load of bull.

Every girl says she likes the assh*le because he’s the challenge — the one she must break, train and force to be more than just a douchebag. Have you ever thought, however, maybe you were the girl in need of learning what it means to actually feel again?

You went through something, like we all do, and because of it you changed. It’s normal and heartbreak happens, but the next assh*le didn’t fix what the first one did; he kept it the same or made it worse. His priority was not you and couldn’t be you. So now you’re bitter and closed off from anything remotely more satisfying than a one-night stand.

I won’t deny that the assh*le is fun or that a good time isn’t promised with him, but when it’s all said and done, is it ever more than just a good time? Probably not.

In fact, the assh*le has a charm about him; it’s the charm you justify your pursuit with. You say, “There’s just something about him.” However, it’s probably the same quality that ended up hurting you in the past.

So you tried to push the nice guy away. When he wouldn’t go away, you pushed harder. Still, he didn’t give up and every time you pushed harder, he pulled you in even more.

He ignored your fears and forced you to grow; he fought for your passions when you were too busy writing them off. He forgot your wants and focused on everything you needed. Then you walked away because he was too nice.

He gave you too much of everything you wanted, and life got too easy. You wanted conflict and hardship as if everything else in life did not promise you an endless journey of just that. This is where you failed.

The nice guy has been hurt, too, he just chose to stay nice. He learned that different people were going to provide him different things in life. The nice guy also chose not to let any of it change who he was.

So, he let you walk away and he called it a day. Everyone always says there are plenty of fish in the sea, and he let you go knowing this, even though it hurt.

What you don’t know is that someone else is out there, and she won’t be as foolish you. When you realize all you really want is the nice guy who cares about you too much, it’s going to be too late. Some other girl will be able to see how great he is, and she won’t waste a minute.

So you lost your Ted Mosby and, I promise, to him you were Robin. The nice guys are there to give you a break, a light to something more than the games we identify our generation with.

He may have loved you too soon and it was too crazy and too much, but guys like Mosby don’t happen every day; they happen never. He got you the blue French horn, and he made you feel love when love was no longer a part of your vocabulary. You were now saying “I love you” again and remembering what it felt like.

He was the guy you were supposed to end up with, who makes everything change. I just wish you’d see it before another girl does because at the end of the day, everyone, including the nice guy you don’t deserve, is rooting only for you.

Sincerely, The Girl Who Was Too Late

The Beauty And Pain Of Falling In Love With The Right Person At The Wrong Time

Finding the right person, a person you want to spend your life with, is the greatest accomplishment one can achieve. Yet, the unfortunate truth is that the right person doesn’t always come at the right time. And that makes all the difference.

You’re not guaranteed to find the right person at the wrong time, but it can happen. I’m living proof. I understand you may be thinking that if you met the right person, the person you loved with all your soul, things would just work out.

We see it in all the movies. Boy meets girl. Boy and girl fall in love. And they live happily ever after – roll credits. How wonderful it would be if the world were so simple.

In reality, human beings are emotionally complicated and because we’re so emotionally complicated, we manage to make situations complicated. Even if you do find the right person, if you aren’t the right person you yourself need to be, the relationship will fail.

Relationships don’t only fail because the person you’re with turns out to be the wrong person; they also fail when you yourself aren’t yet the person you need to be. If you aren’t yet capable of being in a loving relationship then the two of you are doomed.

You will most likely implode emotionally and take it out on the person you love. This goes for the person you love as well – if this person isn’t at the point in life where he or she can be a loving and devoted partner, the relationship won’t work either. There are so many ways a relationship can fail, it’s amazing that we aren’t all alone.

Many people will make excuses for why they aren’t in a place in their lives that’s conducive to a healthy relationship. Many will argue that they need to focus on their careers. Some will argue that they still want to explore life and spend more time flying solo before settling down.

Others will even convince themselves that the love they’ve felt for so long wasn’t true love. They will twist their emotions and memories to make themselves believe that it was more of an illusion than anything else, a dream they need to wake up from. Yet, these are all excuses that veil the truth.

The honest truth is that whether you can admit it to yourself or not, you are not capable of loving – not the way the other person needs to be loved. We should only allow ourselves to settle for one sort of love. The sort of love that is all-consuming, intoxicating, passionate and, at the same time calm, collected, caring and supportive.

We should only settle for a love that embodies the definition in its purest form: to love fully, deeply and selflessly – or rather, as selflessly as humanly possible. I’m not talking about the love of fairytales. I’m talking about the most ideal love that people can possibly be a part of.

Now, the problem when you do find the right person is that you may not yet be willing to give up a part of yourself – because that is what you’re going to have to do.

You are surrendering a part of yourself to your lover. You are giving up on certain things, making concessions and compromises in order to give yourself to the other person. You are devoting a chunk of your life, your thoughts, your dreams and your future to them.

The deepest, purest love is the love shared when both individuals give a piece of themselves to the other, but not entirely without expectation. We may not command anything in return, but because we are only human, we expect our love to be reciprocated.

More so, because we do love our partners, we want them to have the love that they deserve. So what do you do when you love a person knowing you cannot be the person he or she needs you to be?

What do you do when you find the right person, but cannot love that person the way he or she deserves to be loved? If we aren’t willing to make the tradeoffs then there is really only one thing you can do… you have to let that person go.

Letting a person you love go is the most difficult decision you can make in your life. The worst part is that the longer you are apart, the more you come to realize how difficult it is – the more you realize how much you actually love that person.

I haven’t seen or spoken to that girl I met nearly a decade ago in years. And I still know that a part of me does, and always will, love her. Thinking about a person every day of your life that you know you will never be with is a hell of its own. But it’s okay.

It’s okay because it is a part of life. It’s a learning experience like no other. Some of you will fall in love with the right person to find that it is the right time. But some of you will go through what I go through.

I just hope that you have the strength to keep going, not to give up on yourself. You may have had to give up on your relationship with that person, but you can find love again.

You have to believe that you can because it is possible. It is possible to find another right person and to find him or her at the right point in your life. It’s happened to many and will happen to many more. I have to believe that it will happen for me just as you have to believe it will happen for you.

There is no worse way to live life than to live it while giving up on the prospect of love. Love is the only purpose worth living for.

I'd Do Anything

A song that i have been hearing for these past few days. It somehow resembles how i feel right now, at this moment. This song really suits me as how i am today, how i am for these past weeks. This song title is call " I'd Do Anything by Simple Plan"

Another day, is going by, I'm thinkin' about you all the time

But you're out there and I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head 'cuz so many things were left unsaid

But now you're gone and I can't think straight

This could be, the one last chance to make you understand, yeah

I'd do anything just to hold you in my arms

To try to make you laugh somehow I can't put you in the past

I'd do anything just to fall asleep with you

Will you remember me? 'Cuz I know I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules, dreamin' of droppin' out of school

And leave this place to never come back

So now, maybe after all these years

And if you miss me have no fear, I'll be here and I'll be waitin'

This could be the one last chance to make you understand

And I just can't let you leave me once again, yeah

I'd do anything just to hold you in my arms

To try to make you laugh, somehow I can't put you in the past

I'd do anything just to fall asleep with you

Will you remember me? 'Cuz I know I won't forget you

I close my eyes and all I see is you, I close my eyes

I try to sleep, I can't forget you, na na na, na na na

And I'd do anything for you

Na na na, na na na na

I'd do anything just to hold you in my arms

To try to make you laugh, somehow I can't put you in the past

I'd do anything just to fall asleep with you

To fall asleep with you with you, yeah

I'd do anything to fall asleep with you

I'd do anything, there's nothing I won't do

I'd do anything to fall asleep with you

I'd do anything 'cuz I know, I won't forget you